Poems, A Reminder

The last little while I have felt a little down. I would like to say that I'm not sure why I feel that way but I would be lying. My life is in my control and I have the power to change it and be happy under any circumstances and it's the difference between doing and not doing, saying and not saying and thinking and not thinking that influences how I feel about myself, my family and friends, my job, my testimony,the church, my life. I went reading through my old journal and found these poems I wrote at a time in my life when I wasn't the happiest but re-reading them now brings a ray of hope as I look back on that time and see how far I've come since then. It's a reminder that with the Lord and through the atonement we can push through and accomplish anything.

Breathe

I feel as though I cannot breathe.
There is a sacred light I seek.
I see it in those who are strong
But feel that I am too weak,
Too lost, to reach out and hold on.

There are glimpses of light in my past.
It's a struggle to make it last.
My light is dampened by the dark.
All around me the adversary laughs.
I find comfort in my Father's arms.

Oh Lord, please hear my prayer.
Do no leave me in my despair.
I know my spirit is young and frail.
Make me strong with Thy living air.
I know through Thee, I can breathe.

My Purpose
My world has become dark and deep.
Many restless nights in which I cannot sleep.
I'm sinking quickly, in over my head.
Then I hear the voice of the Savior, he said,

I am with thee, you are never alone.
I can help you undo the damage you've done.
My yoke is easy, I will give thee rest
And strength to see you through this test.

Be still thy soul, for I am on your side.
I have been with you every night you cried.
I know your weakness, I see your trial.
I give them to make you strong my child.

Learn of me and look t'wards the light.
Make your way back to the rod and hold on tight.
The way is narrow, a struggle, but straight.
I will help you and welcome you at the gate.

My world is becoming peaceful and bright.
I thank my Lord God for his Son everynight.
I'm rising slowly with help from a friend.
This is my purpose, endure to the end.

Status Update!

It's been a while since I last posted and a lot has happened. I'll just do a quick update:

• I am alive and well
• I am so sick of the cold I could scream, I need SUN!
• Even though I'm not one to go to the tanning bed I secretly want to go so I can experience the amazing warmth of sunshine.
• This weekend I just want to watch General Conference in the comfort of my apartment.
• I went on a date last week and I have another tomorrow.
• I watched Harry Potter 5 tonight and it gets me excited about movie 6 coming out in July.
• I bought a new car a couple weeks ago. It is a Suzuki SX4 and I promise I will post pictures in the near future and give more details as to how I gained ownership of this cute little car.
• Tomorrow I will: Do some grocery shopping, write letters to Cami and Mason, watch conference, straighten my room, read my scriptures and write in my journal.
• I've been eating nothing but junk the last few weeks and I'm past the point of self disgust over it and I WILL start running again. If only the blasted season of winter would just end already! The weather is no excuse for my non-exercising habits, but still.